Refreshing my Heart

"You hold my every moment

You calm my raging sea

You walk with me through fire

You heal all my disease

I trust in You, I trust in You.

I believe You're my healer.

I believe You're more than enough for me.

Jesus, You're all I need.

Nothing is impossible for You.

You hold my world in Your hands."

That last line gets me every time... "You hold my world in Your hands". This thought brings the deepest comfort, an overwhelming peace. Tonight, on my drive home from a Christmas party for work, I had no one to call to keep me awake. I like to talk on the phone while I make that drive, especially at night. Then I remembered when I used to work at YWAM, and would have a long drive home each afternoon, I never talked on my phone. I talked to the Lord. In fact, I would anticipate that time each day, and would be so excited to start my drive. So tonight, I reverted back to that old habit, and I'm glad I did.

I love having conversation with God. It brings me back to that place of reality, knowing that God is interested in my problems, in my successes, in my fears. It reminds me that yes, He is big and powerful and worthy of all glory and the highest honor, but He overjoyed when I take time to chat. Friendships require conversation, exchanging of words, trust... our friendship is the same way. And when I go through stages where I don't pour into this I realize that I never have the peace inside me that I sit here with tonight. God is very real in my life. When I take time out of each day, or any day for that matter, to tell Him what I'm feeling, what I'm going through, even just how my day went, it gives me a sense of fulfillment. Because I know, without any doubt, that He is listening, and smiling down on me because He LOVES, so so much, spending time with me.

These are just some thoughts of mine this evening. It's been a season of changing for me. Since September, I've had so many decisions to make, situations to work through, relationships to build, friendships to mend, commitments to fulfill... It's never-ending. But I know that through it all, my God, in all of His grace, can bring refreshing to my heart. That is what He did tonight, and I look forward to my drive to work in the morning.

I love you all. Especially you, Jenn!

KB